I felt great this morning, surprisingly. I have been waking up around 3am every night because I have to go to the bathroom, but I guess is pretty normal, but really obnoxious.
I got to the gym around 11 and did my gymnastics warm-up, which takes around 30 minutes to complete. Then I got ready for a 5 min EMOM of Alternating Power Snatches and Full snatches every 30 sec at 75% of 1 RM full Snatch. I love EMOM’s because I can breathe, but I still feel strong and efficient. After the strength portion we had 3 rounds of 15 Chest to bar pull-ups, 90 sec of Power Snatches 80lbs, 2 min rest between rounds. After that workout we had a 5 min rest right into 3 rounds of 12 DB Bench Press 45 lbs, 50′ Handstand walk, and 90sec max calories.
This workout I noticed my balance was off on Handstand walks. I am usually pretty good at those and I kept tipping over and Jared Stevens told me I look like a drunk toddler. He is usually pretty accurate. After that workout we had another 5 min rest into 7 minutes of burpees to a 6″ target. When I first began CrossFit this was my first open workout and I did 79 burpees. Today, I did 95 burpees.
Woohoo! I was pleased with my performance after 3 workouts. I have not left on a positive note lately after leaving the gym, but today was a good day! Ok, so the boring gym stuff is over.
After the workout the cravings started and were incredibly strong! I needed hot dogs and needed them immediately. I know I cannot eat hot dogs, but I can have all natural, nitrate free, all beef hotdogs. So I went to the store and bought hot dog buns, the “healthy” hot dogs, sweet relish, and ketchup. I couldn’t get home fast enough. I cooked 4 hot dogs and put them in buns and consumed them faster than a pit crew changing tires. My belly was content until about 30 minutes later when I became dizzy and fatigued. I laid down and rested for 20 minutes and decided I needed chocolate chip cookies. I began making the dough, and after the dough was made; I thought, “Why would I waste my time making individual cookies, when I could make a giant cookie cake?” So that’s what I did. I ate a sliver of the cookie because I needed to save it for later in the evening. Matt loves cookie cake! Matt is my husband and I will be talking about him throughout this journal. Now to the serious stuff.
Do most women become irritable at everybody? I have noticed myself becoming feisty and rude to some, but especially my husband. I feel like I am really mad, but as I am typing this and I am super frustrated I feel a sense of loneliness, like no one understands what I am going through. I’m sure others feel this way. I want my husband to be proud of me and I am a perfectionist. My husband had some criticisms when he got home from work and “I lost it.” When I say, “I lost it” I mean yelling and screaming at my husband. There it is, I yell and scream sometimes when I get frustrated. I am going to blame it on the pregnancy, but I am pretty sure I was irritable when I wasn’t pregnant either. Ooops.
Well, this was my day today. It wasn’t the most entertaining, but based on my emotions today this online journaling is going to get emotional.
James 1:19-20 My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.