1. Benefiting Mallory Lawsons blog
  2. Baby Lawson
  3. My first post
  4. Lawson Blog 01-12-16
  5. Lawson pregnancy blog 01/13/2016
  6. Lawson Blog 01-14-2016 Wodapalooza Bound
  7. Video Blog 1.15.16 Wodapalozza Day 1
  8. Saturday 1/16
  9. Sunday 1/17 Closing up Wodapalozza
  10. 1/21/2016
  11. 1/22/16-1/23/2016 Saltines
  12. 1-24-2016 Gingerale and Pregnancy
  13. 1/25/2016 Feeling better and able to workout!
  14. 1-26-2016 Tacos and Fried Ice Cream
  15. 1-27-2016 Feeling great!
  16. 1/29/2016 Competition day at CrossFit Provision
  17. 02-01-2016
  18. 2-4-2016 14- week check-up was fantastic.
  19. 02-08-2016 I felt the baby kick today!
  20. 02-11-2016
  21. 02-15-2016 Mallory
  22. 02-16-2016
  23. 02-17-2016
  24. 02-18-2016
  25. 2-19-2016
  26. 02-23-2016 Struggling with body image issues
  27. 02-25-2016 Words of encouragement and unbelievable stories
  28. 03-01-2016
  29. 03-04-2016
  30. 03-07-2016
  31. 03-09-2016
  32. 03-14-2016
  33. 03-15-2016
  34. Mallory Lawson breaks down 2 movements she uses as modifications to burpees and the snatch
  35. Mallory Lawson video blog 3.17.16
  36. Baby Lawson lands on The Games instagram
  37. Tomorrow is the big day! 03-22-2016
  38. It’s a BOY!
  39. “Luke’s room”
  40. 03/25-28/2016
  41. 03-30-2016
  42. Pregnancy brain
  43. Fashion in maternity clothes
  44. WOD pregnancy scare last night
  45. 3.11.16 Video
  46. 04-12-2016
  47. 04-14-2016
  48. Recent Travels (Video)
  49. 04-24-2016 Vulnerability
  50. 04-26-2016
  51. 04-27-2016
  52. 05-02-2016
  53. 05-03-2016
  54. Another good day!
  55. 05-06-2016
  56. 05-09-2016
  57. 05-10-2016
  58. DEDICATION TO MY DAD
  59. 05-17-2016
  60. 30 Weeks!
  61. Braxton Hicks
  62. 32 Weeks!
  63. 06-13-2016
  64. 06-17-2016
  65. 06-20-2016
  66. 06-24-2016
  67. 06-28-2016
  68. 37 weeks!
  69. 07-14-2016
  70. 07-18-2016
  71. 07-20-2016
  72. 07-21-2016
  73. Emotional!
  74. Contractions are coming in hot today!
  75. 39 weeks!
  76. 07-27-2016
  77. 08-01-2016
  78. 08-04-2016
  79. Luke

 

I am pretty discouraged this morning! After my doctor appointment yesterday I was hoping for really good news to deliver Luke soon, but instead I found out that Luke has been wanting to come out, but my body is not ready yet. I haven’t dilated any further from 38 weeks and my cervix is tilted backwards. I will have an ultra sound on August 2 to make sure he is doing alright. I am praying that my body will adjust and go into labor on its own. The doctor told me she will not deliver me until 41 weeks if my body does not change. I know the body can do amazing things and it can be ready to deliver any day. I was so disappointed yesterday and feeling sorry for myself. I know God’s timing is perfect timing.

Plus I got so mad at Matt because he said it’s not that big of a deal to wait. I said have you been carrying a baby around in your belly for 10 months? No. Just hug me and tell me you love me. I guess I need to get to the gym and try to get this baby out.

On the bright side it’s more time I get to spend with Matt and I and I will always cherish those moments. We have been able to look through thousands of pictures and put them in picture frames and photo albums. We have had a fun time looking back through time at each other. Great memories with some grandparents, stylish clothes, and comparing who was more athletic growing up. We are so childish, but it makes for some good laughs.

Personal: I was so upset about my body not being ready because I had only gained 28 pounds thus far, no stretch marks that I can tell or see, and all in all a pretty easy pregnancy. This is my controlling, Type A personality coming out and it’s not pretty. I want things to happen, when I want them. I have now started worrying about things out of my control. My mind is getting weak and my patience is growing low. I have been praying my entire pregnancy to deliver Luke when the time is right and I will trust whatever happens. Obviously, my faith is small because I think I know better. I have grown frustrated and impatient instead of letting God run my life. So many lessons in life and I still think I have control.

I will wait, hopefully patiently and continue to trust that God’s timing is the perfect timing! I’m human and I will struggle daily, but I need to give up my worries and control. 

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