Oh my goodness, when is my tailbone going to be free of this horrible pain? I have been dealing with a painful tailbone now since week 8 and now I am going on week 16 and I can barely walk after working out or walking a block. The pain is now shooting down my left leg. I think this child is sitting on a nerve or sciatic.
I have been extremely stressed out this past month with the possibility of losing my job at Evangel and I haven’t had time to focus on my pregnancy or anything else for that matter. I have been updating my resume, filling out applications, and searching for jobs all over Springfield, MO. Good news is I believe my job is secure for another year. Praise Jesus. Matt and I have been praying for this situation for a month and we even asked my parents, who are prayer warriors, or at least what I call them. I got to call them and tell them that prayer was answered today! God is so good!
I have been doing really well with my workouts. I take one day off a week and have been doing evening crossfit class and is pretty fun not to have to spend more than 1 hour in the gym. I feel much more productive in my daily life, but I get so tired I just want to take a nap or two.
Another side effect I have been encountering is a sense of overwhelming burden. What if’s? What if I’m not good enough? What if something happens? After reading all these books there is so much to learn and establish. Worry is one of my biggest sins and I have to daily focus on surrendering my heart to Him and he always takes care of me, but I’m only human. I have been crying much more lately and Matt hugs me and tells me everything is going to be, ok. I know it is, but my emotions are crazy this week. I am hoping they will eventually balance out.
It’s almost time to start posting baby bump pictures to the website, but I’m not ready yet.